tired, lazy and bored...

That's right. Lately, I'm tired, lazy and bored.

I get tired of working (too much pressure, too high expectations, too many impossible AND unnecessary demands... TOO be tahan)...

.. too lazy to wake up in the morning (not enough sleep + it's raining and damn nice to sleep in)...

.. too bored (because I've finished all the stuffs I need to take care of and left with nothing else to do in the office)...

Don't get me wrong. Of course, I can do other things. Things like chatting, bullshitting, go yam cha, gossip gossip, lepak here and there, go out for breakfast, lunch, go shopping and yeah, surf the internet, reading manga, downloading anime and bla bla bla yadda yadda yadda... (endless list)

To be very frank here, I've been sitting in the office reading manga online for two whole days while waiting for further instructions from my boss/top management/whatever you call it.

The meeting is tomorrow. Traveling has been postponed and rescheduled SOOO many times (this better be good!).

*prays*

I hope I won't be sent to travel this week. I've had enough! Enough! I wanna sleep in my own bed! I wanna laze around and be in my own house, in my own room, hugging my own pillows, stuff toys, sleeping in my own bed and eating my mum's special home cook meals!

Grrr...

I'm in a somewhat restless-moody state.

B-E-W-A-R-E!!! I Bite! (whenever I feel like it)

*sigh*

Awww... another senseless post from me. Bear with me please. I'll get over this soon enough.

crapping...zzz

Right. I'm posting craps. It makes me feel better. So bear with me a bit.

*looks at watch*

OMG!!! It's so late already! I better go to sleep now! Meeting early tomorrow morning!

I'll wake up early tomorrow and post something.

Good nite!

10 Reasons why I didn’t blog

Hi again. Sorry for the long absence. I didn’t feel like writing. On top of that, life’s busy and demanding and well, I just didn’t feel like writing. Here are the 10 preciousss reasons that I came up with for not blogging. Read and enjoy. Or read and be pissed off. Whatever.

1. I’m too busy. Job’s calling me, my boss is calling me, his wife is calling me, my manager is calling me, Sub-con is calling me, consultant is calling me, my friends are calling me, my mum is calling me, my dad is calling me… bla bla bla. Yes. I spent most of my time answering phone calls. See? That’s busy. And my ears! My poor poor ears! Chow tar liaooo! Listening to phone calls all the time. No wonder I’m having headache!

2. When I’m not busy, I became too lazy to do anything. What do you call that? Overworked? Overstressed? It’s a symptom that I used to have. Still having it now. When I do too much work, the next thing you know, I may not move at all. It’s like I just went kong or something. Snapped maybe?

3. The weather’s too hot. When it’s hot, I feel lazy. When I feel lazy, my brain won’t work. When my brain isn’t working, then my fingers won’t move (cause it receives instructions to move from my brain lar). When my fingers won’t move, I can’t type. If I can’t type, I can’t blog. Got it? Haiya. No brain no finger how to blog? No activities what!

4. The internet’s down. This ar, I tell you, is my number ONE reason why I didn’t blog. Potong stim aje I tell you! Damn tu-lan. Especially when I have the best inspirations, best topic to blog on and best mood to blog, then the blardy internet connection sure went down as if it was shot down by missiles. PUI!!!!!

5. I’m sick. Huhuhu. This is the paling kolien part. When it comes to the sakit topic ar, my most famous sicknesses are :

1. GASTRIC – till I ended up in the Emergency Room and scared my mum shitless
2. WINDY STOMACH – keeps farting like I’m leaking or something
3. NAUSEA – feels like vomiting all the time lor…like pregnant lady.. tu-lan nye!
4. LAU SAI / DIARHOEA – best friends with toilet bowl (sien)

Surprisingly, I don’t get flu or fever THAT easily, and even getting those do not necessarily render me useless. Unless I have high fever. Now, that’s scary!

6. I hate uploading pictures. I hate waiting for the pics to load. That’s why most of my posts are without pics. I hate losing my patience over some stupid pictures that refused to load no matter how long I waited. Once, it took me hours (days even) just to upload one small picture. I was so freaking pissed that I nearly tossed out my desktop! No point getting pissed mad for not being able to post pictures, right? So, I either posted without the pictures, or I mah dun blog lor.

7. I’m worried sick! What am I worrying about? My weight! My waistline! I can’t wear my normal clothes! Fuck, I can’t even button up my shirts or wear my blouse without worrying that it’ll be torn to pieces. I can’t wear my jeans! Goddamn, if I’m so worried about my food and waistline and diet and exercise and all those bloody time consuming shits, do you think I’ll have time to blog, har?!

8. Negative feedback, negative feedbacks! My sisters told me that my blog is very sia soey (memalukan which means shameful) because it contains too much vulgar words, too many cuss words, too many angry remarks, too impolite/rude, too low class. Un-educational and totally useless to read! *sigh* There goes my self-esteem. Everything down the drain liaoooo… you say lar, where got mood to blog ler? Ai…

9. I don’t feel like blogging. Totally no mood lar. How?

10. No thrill. No thrill man! No adrenaline! I mah no want to blog lor. Can barely maintain the blog’s pureee English. How lor like tat? Better close shop hor?

Last but not least, tenkiu for reading my craps. *bows low low*

*runs off to write another post*

unbelievable 2

Hello again.

Finally dragged my ass here and checked my stats after finished watching and re-watching my Anime (I haven't checked it in weeks). It's not much, but hey, I actually have readers. Readers! And I do have a steady flow of readers, even if it's not much. But gosh!

I mean Good Lord, people are actually reading the craps I spewed out. My craps. My life!

Wow!

To all my dear readers out there, I have absolutely no idea why you keep coming back (care to tell me why? *wink* *wink*) cuz personally I think my blog sucks and since I don't get much feedback, I don't quite know how well I'm actually doing in the blogsphere... but but but!!!

THANK YOU!!! *muaks*

Thanks for your support, for your loyalty, for just being here. I appreciate it. Somewhere, somehow, there are people who reads about my life, knowing what I've been through and all that. At least, I won't feel THAT lonely. Haha...

Well, I've just thought of the stuffs to post in my blog. Remember my helicopter ride? I actually took some pictures, so yeah, I may upload it here. Haha.. It's not much, but it's better than nothing, right?

I hope I'll be able to blog more next week. I may move to Sibu as well, so there are lots of preparations to do. Heck, I may be going all over the place, since my BigBoss changes his mind every goddamn seconds or so... So confusing. So tiring. So sien. *sigh*

I hope I'll be able to breath still. I hope I'll lost weight. I hope I'll slim down, back to my previous slim waistline. I hope I'm still 18 years old.

I hope I'll be happy. Contented.

I hope I won't be disappointed. Ai...

out of idea

Howdie folks. It's been ages since I blog.

I haven't been blogging regularly recently. It's like I totally ran out of idea on stuffs to write. And I'm short on blog titles as well.

The last few weeks had been extremely hectic. Work sucks because I had more than I can handle and my boss has a goddamn high expectations of me. Most of his expectations start with the big letter I (which denotes Impossible).

And I refrained from writing because I realized that I've been spewing so much anger lately. Heck, I got fed up with them myself. All I've ever felt is anger, anger and more anger. Gosh, is something wrong with me?

When was the last time I felt really good? Free of anger, free of worries, free of troubles?

I can't remember those times. And I don't want to. It feels so stupid to be missing the good ol' days when nobody else involved miss it. Get what I mean? Awww.... it's complicated.

I'm feeling restless without knowing the reason why. I'm feeling helpless without any comprehension at all. I'm tired, empty and sad. As for why am I feeling this way, the answer is : I don't know.

The truth is, I didn't put in much effort in my work lately. I didn't feel like blogging, I didn't feel like socializing and I just didn't want to do anything. I should be doing my best (especially in my work) and yet I'm not. I've always felt that, no matter how hard I worked and tried, at the end of the day, it would have meant nothing because I have no one to share it with.

Life seems dark and empty and meaningless when you put it that way, no?

All I've ever felt now is boredom. And the fact that I get bored easily doesn't make it any easier. Life's the same everyday, every week. Every goddamn second and minutes of the day. You wake up in the morning, get ready for work, eat, work, eat, rest then sleep and the whole cycle repeats itself the next day and the day after that and the day after and after... So boring.

As for my anime, I've downloaded and watched all the Anime that I'm after. And I'm stuck here now, waiting for more new episodes from Claymore, Kekkaishi, Naruto Shippuuden, Bleach and D.Gray-man. These are my favs at the moment.

And I'm still waiting for the Gundam Seed Destiny movie that mother fucker Fukuda promised to release in 2007. It's postponed to 2008 now. Bloody hell.

I watched Ratatouille last nite. Amusing movie about a rat named Remy that learns to cook. A rat that can cook. Now I feel worse cause I can't cook even if my life depended on it.

I'm worse than a rat. Great feeling, eh?

I need something to distract me from all these miseries.

Should I write Anime reviews? Would you read them? Hmmm...

Just being naughty...

I'm feeling a bit naughty right now, and so I thought about some of the naughty things that I did when I really got into the mood. One of the stuffs I did was playing with food. It makes eating them all the more enjoyable. Imagine playing and tempting them a while, then telling them you're gonna eat them, nice and slowly savouring them. Oooo...

So, here are the pics. Nothing too extreme tho. Yayaya I know.. it's silly. So what? Choy meh? =P

A plate of mushroom soup with a drop of white cream in the mid...

which was quickly transformed into the nose of a pig with a tahi lalat on its upper lip! wakaka

Oh, poor pikachu!

There there there. How's that? Hehehe. That's the only post today. I needa catch up on my Anime. Wanna watch Naruto Shippuuden epi 5!!! And maybe one or two epi of CSI. Gotta go minna. Have a good time!!! Just like dear pikachu in the above pic.. LOL

dizzy O.o

Oro?!

O.O

Me feel weird weird.

Everything spins.

Everything!

Me dizzy-liaoooo.

@.@

The monitor's shaking so badly now.

=.=

Me dunno why.

T.T

Mebe me stared too much?

-.-;;

The monitor got scared of me ka?

>.>

Ai.

My stare so intense meh?

-_-''

Monitor shakes some more.

-__________-'''

Enuf.

*crawls into bed*

Me gonna get the dizziness fixed.

Till I'm done with tat...

Ta-ta. ;p

Writer's Block

This is gonna be short.

I'm having writer's block. Again.

It happens so oftenly, it's no fun anymore.

Besides, I'm lazy.

Each of my finger weights a tonne.

Ya know how heavy is that?

Answer :
1 finger = 1 tonne = 1,000 kg
Which means 10 fingers = 10 x 1 tonne each = 10 tonnes = 10 x 1,000 kg = 10,000 kg

Becoz of tat, there shall be no title for this entry.

My brain is currently overloaded with other things.

I MUST NOT strain it further by requesting it to THINK of an APPROPRIATE TITLE.

That's so ma fan ya know.

On 2nd thought, without a title, this post will look weird.

That's even more ma fan. Sian too.

I'm having mixed feelings right now.

Me kinda pissed.

Me confused.

Me weird.

Me duno wat I'm doing.

Me so so stoned.

O.o

Eeekkk!