Is that really me?

Hello again world. It has been ages since I last dropped by. So much has changed then, it never really occurs to me that whatever I posted once a long long time ago here, was - no, IS still here, really.

Spent the last few hours reading my own blog. Just surfing randomly. A jump here, and a little peeking there. I gotta say, I barely recognize this fellow. I barely recognize myself.

She sounds like a stranger to me. In fact, I'm not even sure if I can ever write as good as I could, as she could. Perhaps I have changed. Perhaps time has changed me. Perhaps circumstances changed me. Perhaps...

I have grown up.

Why? I worry about different things now. I think about different things now. I do things differently now too. I changed the way I talked, my thinking processes, my dreams, my desires.

Even the way I write is different now. I'm pretty sure they are not as creative, imaginative, emotional, wild and as intriguing as before. There is a high possibility that they actually sound quite boring.

Do I care about that? Not really. Just stating the obvious. Does it bother me? Nah, it doesn't. Why should it?

I've changed. I've matured - maybe just a tad bit. But right now, that's enough.

Would I take up blogging again? Maybe yes, maybe no. No promises there. I may come back here in another 3 years time and exclaimed, Man! I totally forgot about this blog!

Thought about posting some articles here once in a while. I admit, I do miss the good ol' days.. blogging, thinking about home sweet home, missing my family and all that. Don't get me wrong, I still love my family. I miss my mum and sisters whenever I go traveling, and I do miss my late Father the most, but there's nothing much I can do about that. Life goes on. I have to move on. But I will always hold him dear in my heart. Promise. *pinky shakes*

A-haks. That's a bit of the child in me poking up. Maybe I am still her after all. d^___^b

Won't post much now. Have to work. QS job really. The truth is, I hate calculating materials. I prefer to have the QS do that, but I have not been able to find a reliable one at the moment. So, I have to do the calculations myself. It's a pain in the ass because I have been running all over the place, daily. I wish I have as much stamina as I did before. Age is catching up to me.

Oh yeah. Latest update. I have been busy since April last year. It started off at a good pace, and slowly ride up a thunderstorm. Working on several projects right now. Formed my own construction company too. Being a boss is not - I repeat, NOT easy!!! Problems pop up every now and then which really saps every remaining energy I have in my mind and body. Everyday.

Note to self : n.e.e.d...a...b.r.e.a.k.

Unfortunately, I won't be getting that anytime soon.

Gotta wake up super early tomorrow for a Labour Day's function on my site. *sigh* It's gonna be another long morning.

Well, here's to hoping that you will see me here again, soon!

KiBiKiBi - signing out ;P